After so long, today is like the lastest time i'm going to bed after attachment starts. Well eveyone is not online is they used to be, maybe is because everyday we are staring at the computer that's why.

Sometimes, it's better not to talk about it and really it helps. But it's painful to go through. You keep thinking and not happens. You can't stop thinking and i really don't know how to control my thoughts. Well, time may do the work, i also not sure. No one can answer me, all the answers i want wasn't really given by me. Sometimes i wish she would just tell me straight saying she have no feelings for me anymore, or even i don't like you anymore. Like that i will feel better so much 'better' as in i wouldn't always give myself false hope telling myself there's always hope in us. It's true i listened to so many opinions and really they affect me, but i always still do the things i want but always felt stupid when i recalled all that had been said to me, then i'll stop. Maybe if i've my own firm stand, things would turn out this way.

I hope to talk to you, talk means really sit down and talk, if there's nothing to talk about, it's obvious, we will be only friends but i'll still care and love you. But now, you are giving me that feeling that we are only friends, but from what i heard is so different. that's why till now, i'm still holding on so tightly.

Anyway, like i say, time right, let tell prove everything. Actually along i already plan not to contact her during our attachment, but 1 key person said something to me which really affects me and change my thinking. I also don't know what i'm talking about le. The point is, meet me 1 day and have a 'good talk' with me. I really want to know how you feel.