Sunday, November 12, 2006
Suddenly i realise alot people have a wrong preception on me.
I usually hear or make people think that Clemence is.......
A clubber
A hongster
A gangster
A person who smoke
A person who knows alot of girls
A person who knows how to tackle girls
A person who know alot of nice places to chiong
Etc........
But guys, you are wrong. All of you. I don't really club that often, my last time was abt 6 or months back. I'm not a hongster, it's my way of communication. i do talk to guys too and all my brothers are all GUYS! It just happened that i'm always caught at the place the where i'm the only guy with many girls. And of course i'm not a gangster. If i were, my father and brother will KILL me, and those who knows me really well like my brothers, they know i hate to join gang. Maybe because i have friends that are gangster and happens that you guys saw me with them. I mean they are a group of people fun to hang out with sometimes but i don't join the gang. I don't smoke cause i mself hate the smell. So why smoke.? I know many girls, ya. I have 16 girls in my current class and i'm the only guy (classA03). Previvous class the population of the guys is only 5 out of 15 (class A23). And i got to know their friends whom are all girls too. If you were to ask me where are the places to chiong which is good i can tell you, but that doesn't i've been there before. I heard about these places from all my friends who goes clubbing or chill. I'm not interesting but my life can be really boring. Maybe some people whom don't really know me that well might think i'm a good boyfriend, think again. I'm not. I always tell people i'm not that good but they kept asking me don't shy or act humble. But if i'm that great, why do all the one i loved left me? I've always made the ones i loved cry. And i hate girls to cry. Why am i making myself to hate those i loved? maybe i still don't understand myself that well. So guys, most of the time when i say i'm stupid, i mean it. Or if i degrade myself it's true. How i wish it isn't but i jus can't change the facts right. Just like people say i'm ugly, i agree, but i never denied that i'm cute. haha..
I love you but i don need your love in return. By now you should know. I just want to make u happy. That's all. But i really hope i didn't irritate you cause that's also making your life difficult right?
To people i love
Kai
Alex
Z
Ming
Bird
Tong
Mel
Van
Nat
B
Aung
Foo
Phyo
Winnie
and you
I never regret meeting you guys and thanks for walking with me in my life.
Keep smiling. Love you guys!!!
;I'm living wifout u;.
11:18 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
So much had happened, so much had past.
All that is left are only memories, scars and misses.
Went was the last time he called me out for basketball and i rejected him, how he scold me fuck you on the phone and how he say he would ask me out for basketball anymore.
We lost a brother, a really close one, not best friend but brother. He left us early to the kingdom of GOD. Heard he didn't bear to leave but by GOD's will, he left before us. Do i hate GOD? No i don't, cause both Alex and I believe in him. He does things for a reason, GOOD people don't live long, cause GOD don't wan them to suffer so much on earth and He calls his faithful children back early to let them enjoy life in heaven. I hope I can see him in heaven too!
We all missed him, Nat miss him so much that everytime i see her talked about him, my heart ach so much. Kai, Ming, Aung, Bird, Z, Yi, Sam, Joe ( fat n skinny) , his sister and me, all of us miss his voice and laughter. Our laughter do not sound as happy as it was, but i believe time will heal all things. After this accident, our bond grew stronger and Aung told me this, it always when we lose this we then will treasure the things we have.
I regretted, i seriously did. I miss those basketball days, KFC after the game, chats and laughter, jokes shared, secrets shared and so many other things. I've been going for more ball games now, and you know what, basketball is still my favourite. Everytime i hold the ball, shoot the ball or even pass it, the game, the feeling is so so nice. Sorry bros, i don't when i'll move back but i seriously miss the place i once stayed.
I've already lost 1 brother, and i told you i don't want to lose anyone else, especially you. Haven't been messaging you, I missed you. Don't know whether you did receive my message the last time but i hope u did finish reading. I just want to tell you, I missed you alot. I'm not giving up still, just that i don't want to disturb your life.
Time passed really fast, it's been like 3 or 4 weeks since the accident, but everytime seems like yesterday. Hope all of us grow strong together and keeps him in us happily as we move on. NAT you see this, you know what i want to say oki. You should know.! = )
So yesterday, yesterday, yesterday......................................................
;I'm living wifout u;.
11:32 PM