I don't who to ask, who to tell, who to listen.....

i asked myself and i made up my mind i want her back, but always got beaten down. I always knew the feelings is over, but i always tired so hard to convince myself it is not.

But her action show everything.! Am i thinking alot, I don't know. I'm guessing everyday, I'm so impatiention. Even the blind, the deaft can tell that she's avoiding me. I can feel it too. I don't want to accept the truth, but why am i making myself so tired and upset.

I know i missed her, I know alot of things, but now i always question myself am i knowing and guessing all right? Am i really going to give you up?

Guess what, I'll not talk about her from now on because i also don't want to disturb her life. I just want to live a relationship free life now. I love her and i know what i said to her and friends will come true. I'm tired, tired of giving all my feelings, tired of heart breaks, tired of losing the one I love, tired of missing and thinking, and tiring of guessing.

Since everyone is saying give one another time, fine i'll give all the time in the world......
To tell people I love Deseree, i say not tired but the people who are listening will feel tired. Translate in chinese. Ya i love you still deseree, missing so badly as well........

Time, you, everything, i give up, i don't like this feeling, i feel like a mad person, a dumb person.

i want to e happy again, i want no one to worry for me, i want to keep myself busy....... I will let time and GOD decide. Since everyone says time time time will prove everything. SO BE IT....!