Merry christmas this year was kinda missing. The atmosphere wasn't there at all. When out on christmas eve to celebrate like what we do every year but this year it felt so normal, there wasn't a sign of happiness in our group as far as i can sense. All of us looked happy but we all just missed him so much. I don't call to call him anymore for him to reject my call cause he's busy with his aurthor boys "job". I didn't got drunk like last year, cause i realise no one can accompany me to do so then him. His smile, his laughter. i know my sis is trying so hard to get over it, but it's just so hard for her, for everyone. We miss you bro.! You know we do.

Well, since Christmas is a time so hope, happiness and thanks giving. We should be at least happy right? God came down just to save us, and alex believe so just like i did. So it's a time to REALLY REALLY thank God for everything he had done for me and everyone around me. He does things with his reason and it's so complicated for us to understand. all we have to do is just BELIEVE.>!

Well guys, Merry Christmas And A happy NEW YEAR!!! Cheers and Have FUN!! ALOTS OF IT!!!!

Thanks Bi~~ for your present and all the things you've done for me. Merry christmas sweet..